what the fuck is this? why do i always trap myself in these kinda situations? i liked this guy in australia and we were not far apart but he treated me nothing but only a piece of meat to fuck. and now i really like this guy but we're so far apart i really think we would fall in love if we're tgt at least for awhile... i really remember browsing his facebook profile pics the day i know him he has this picture of him and his ex-girlfriend but after awhile we've been skyping he removed it on purpose. well alison said he did that because he respected me and doesnt want me to be jealous but guess what facebook is after all, very evil. when i chatted with pete in inbox theres this right hand side bar that shown me his old photos. and there it was, the photo showing him made out with his ex-gf in some sorta important dinner.
the point is i dont really know how to deal with this distance thing, especially knowing the fact that he's not going to be there for me in the future. cuz our world is so different! he's going to be in the air force after his grad school 2 years maybe? i know it's too soon to talk about it. we're going to have an awesome vacation in december and im not gonna let anything ruin the plan. please god. please bear with me this time because i really want to believe in love, and that love can overcome all obstacles.
im not sure if this paper heart could survive another heartbreak. i honestly don't
